Have you ever just seen a person and automatically know you want to be friends with them? From what you see and hear about them, you just know that the two of you would click. And it’s not even in a way that you would want to be in a relationship, you just want to get to know them better.
I hate the fact that you have consumed all of my thoughts and dreams. I hate the fact that every time I hear or say your name my heart skips a beat. I hate the fact that whenever I see you in the halls I catch my breath. I hate the fact that whenever you’re near I get weak in the knees and I can hardly speak. And most of all I hate the fact that I am so utterly in like with you.
I don’t want to be just some other girl to him. I want to be seen as more than a friend or little sister figure. I want to be seen as a potential girlfriend.
I will probably never have the confidence to tell a guy I have feelings for him or ask a guy out on a date. Unless I am 100% sure that he has the same feelings for me as well. I guess it’s because I am afraid of rejection. I am afraid of hearing the words “I’m sorry, but….. ” I am afraid of being totally humiliated and feeling so terribly heartbroken.